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One Breath at a Time · Han Seo-yun

Chapter 7: Beginner's Mind

The Same Street, Twice

Arturo is fifty-six and has lived on the same street for twenty-two years. Every morning, he walks the same route to the bakery: past the pharmacy, past the small park, past the row of old houses with green doors, across the road at the traffic lights and around the corner. He could do it with his eyes closed. In fact, in a sense, he does. His mind is usually on the day ahead, on the news or on a problem at work. He sees nothing. He arrives at the bakery and could not tell you a single thing he passed on the way.

One Saturday, his four-year-old granddaughter, Lucía, is staying with him, and she comes along to the bakery. The walk, which usually takes Arturo seven minutes, takes forty. Lucía stops at everything. She crouches to look at a line of ants carrying crumbs along a crack in the pavement. She points at a cat sleeping in a window and asks why cats sleep so much. She discovers that one of the green doors has a brass knocker shaped like a hand. She picks up a fallen leaf and announces that it has red on one side and yellow on the other. In the park, she stands still with her head tilted, listening to a bird that Arturo had never noticed.

At first, Arturo is impatient. He wants his bread. Then, slowly, he begins to look where Lucía is looking. He sees the ants. He sees the brass hand on the door, which must have been there for all twenty-two years. He hears the bird. He feels as if he is walking down a street he has never seen before, though he has walked it thousands of times.

That evening, after Lucía has gone home, Arturo thinks about the walk. What had changed? Not the street. It was exactly the same street. What had changed was the way he looked at it. For forty minutes, he had seen it through the eyes of someone for whom everything was new. Zen has a name for this way of seeing. It calls it beginner's mind.

The Mind of a Beginner

In Japanese, beginner's mind is called shoshin. It refers to an attitude of openness, curiosity and freshness, the attitude of someone who is seeing or doing something for the first time. A beginner does not yet know what to expect. They have no fixed ideas about how things should be. They look closely, ask questions and are easily surprised. Their mind is open.

As we gain experience, something valuable and something costly happen together. The valuable part is that we learn. We become skilled, efficient and knowledgeable. We no longer need to think about every step of a familiar task, so we can do it quickly and well. The costly part is that we often stop looking. We assume we already know what is there. We see our expectations instead of what is actually in front of us. We walk past the brass hand on the door for twenty-two years.

Beginner's mind is not about giving up our knowledge or skill. An experienced cook does not need to forget how to cook in order to taste a dish freshly. An experienced doctor does not need to forget medicine in order to listen to a patient as if hearing them for the first time. Beginner's mind is about holding our knowledge lightly enough that it does not block our view. It is the ability to say, even about something very familiar, "Let me look again."

In Zen practice, beginner's mind is not only a nice idea but a central quality. Zen teachers have often said that the practice should always be fresh, that each period of sitting, each breath, each step should be met as if for the first time. A person who sits for thirty years can still sit with beginner's mind. In fact, many teachers would say that this is the whole point: not to become an expert at sitting, but to remain, always, a beginner.

A Book About Beginner's Mind

The phrase "beginner's mind" became widely known in many parts of the world through a book called Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind, first published in 1970. It was based on talks given by Shunryu Suzuki, a Japanese Zen teacher who moved abroad in the late 1950s and taught many students there until his death in 1971. The book became one of the most widely read introductions to Zen practice.

I will not quote from it, but I can describe one of its central ideas in my own words. Suzuki suggested that a person who is new to something stays open to whatever might happen, while a person who feels sure of their expertise tends to narrow what they are able to notice. The beginner's openness is not a weakness to be overcome, but a precious quality to be protected. The goal of practice, as he presented it, is to keep this openness alive, even after many years of experience.

Suzuki also emphasized that beginner's mind is connected to humility and to a kind of emptiness, not in the sense of having nothing, but in the sense of not being crowded with our own importance and our own ideas. A mind that is packed with its own opinions has no room for anything new. A mind with some free space in it can welcome what arrives.

This idea has been taken up far beyond Zen, by teachers, artists, scientists, designers and many others who have found that the ability to look at familiar things with fresh eyes is a source of learning and creativity. But in its original setting, it is above all a quality of practice: the way a person sits, breathes, walks and lives when they are not trapped by what they think they already know.

It is worth adding that beginner's mind is not only for people who are new to Zen. Suzuki addressed many of his talks to students who had already been practising for years, and he seemed particularly concerned that experience could slowly harden into self-satisfaction. The danger he pointed to is familiar in every field. A person who has done something for a long time may start to believe that they have nothing left to learn, and from that moment, their learning stops. Beginner's mind is a protection against this quiet closing.

The Overflowing Cup

There is an often-told story about a Zen teacher and a learned visitor that captures the spirit of beginner's mind. Its origin is uncertain, it is retold in many modern books and it exists in several versions, so I will tell it simply, in my own words.

A man who was very knowledgeable came to visit a Zen teacher. He wanted to learn about Zen, he said, but as soon as he sat down, he began to talk about everything he already knew: books he had read, theories he held, opinions about other teachers. The Zen teacher listened quietly and offered him tea.

The teacher began to pour tea into the visitor's cup. When the cup was full, he kept pouring. The tea overflowed onto the saucer, then onto the table. The visitor watched in alarm and at last asked him to stop, because the cup could not hold any more. The teacher put down the teapot and gently pointed out that the visitor was like the cup: so filled with his own views that nothing new could enter, and that he would first need to make some room.

The story is gentle and a little humorous, and it speaks to almost everyone. Most of us, at times, are like the visitor. We approach a new experience, a new person or a new idea already full of what we think we know. We listen in order to respond, not in order to learn. We look in order to confirm, not in order to see. And then we wonder why nothing seems to change.

Emptying the cup does not mean throwing away everything we know. It means being willing, for a moment, to set it aside, to listen and look as if for the first time. Then, if what we already know is useful, we can bring it back. But first, there needs to be some room.

How Familiarity Closes Our Eyes

Why do we stop seeing familiar things? Part of the answer lies in how the mind works. When something is repeated many times without change, the mind tends to stop paying attention to it. You may have noticed this with sounds. When you first enter a room with a humming refrigerator, you hear it. After a while, you stop hearing it, even though it has not stopped. Psychologists sometimes call this process habituation. It is a useful feature of the mind: it frees our attention for what is new and possibly important.

The same thing happens with sights, routines and even people. A route we walk every day, a room we sit in every evening, the face of a person we live with: all of these can slowly fade from attention. We do not see them anymore. We see our idea of them. This saves effort, but it also makes life feel flat and grey. Days blur into each other because we are not really experiencing them. We are living on a kind of automatic pilot.

Another part of the answer is that knowing feels good and not knowing can feel uncomfortable. When we think we understand something, we feel safe and competent. When we admit that we do not fully understand, we may feel exposed. So we often rush to label things, to say "I know what this is," and move on. The label saves us the discomfort of looking. But it also closes the door on discovery.

Beginner's mind gently reverses this. It invites us to notice when we have stopped looking, and to look again. It invites us to stay a little longer with not knowing, and to discover that it can be interesting rather than frightening. Arturo's walk with Lucía was a vivid experience of this. But beginner's mind can be practised deliberately, in small ways, every day.

Beginner's Mind With People

One of the most powerful places to practise beginner's mind is with the people closest to us. Over time, we build a picture of each person we know well: their habits, their opinions, the way they will react. These pictures are often useful. But they can also become a cage, for us and for them.

Think of a partner, a parent, a child or a colleague you have known for many years. When they start to speak, how often do you already know, or think you know, what they are going to say? How often do you stop listening halfway because you have heard it before? How often do you react to your picture of them rather than to the person who is actually in front of you today?

People change. A teenager is not the same person they were at ten. A parent in their eighties is not the same person they were at fifty. A partner of twenty years has grown in ways that may have gone unnoticed. When we meet them with beginner's mind, we give them a chance to show us who they are now. We may be surprised.

Practising beginner's mind with people can be as simple as asking a question you do not already know the answer to, and really listening to the answer. It can mean noticing something about a familiar face that you have not noticed before. It can mean setting aside, for one conversation, the story you usually tell yourself about this person. Many people find that this small change brings new warmth into old relationships.

Beginner's Mind and Learning at Any Age

Beginner's mind is also about the courage to be a beginner in the ordinary sense: to learn something new, to try something we are not yet good at, to be clumsy and uncertain in front of others.

Many adults find this very difficult. As children, we are beginners at almost everything, and we accept it. As adults, we become used to being competent, and being a beginner again can feel embarrassing. We may avoid learning a new language, an instrument, a sport or a skill because we fear looking foolish. Or we start, feel awkward and give up quickly.

Zen suggests a different attitude. Being a beginner is not a shameful stage to be rushed through. It is a valuable state with its own gifts: curiosity, wonder and a vivid sense of discovery. Mistakes are part of learning, not signs of failure. The clumsiness of a beginner is honest and alive in a way that the smooth confidence of an expert sometimes is not.

People of every age can practise this. A teenager trying a new instrument, a middle-aged person learning to swim, an older person learning to use a computer or to paint can all practise beginner's mind, not only in the sense of learning, but in the sense of welcoming the experience of not knowing. Many older people who take up something new report that they feel younger, not because they have become young again, but because they have rediscovered the freshness of learning.

It can help to remember that every skilled person you admire was once a beginner. The fine carpenter once hit their thumb with a hammer. The fluent speaker of a foreign language once struggled to order a cup of coffee. The calm meditator once sat for five minutes and found it unbearable. Being a beginner is not a sign that you are behind. It is simply the place where everyone starts, and, in the Zen view, a place worth returning to again and again.

Three Lives With Fresh Eyes

Leila is forty-eight and has been a nurse for twenty-five years. She is excellent at her job, but she has noticed that she sometimes feels bored and slightly impatient, as if she has seen every situation before. This year, she has been asked to train new nurses. At first, she finds their questions tiring. Then she begins to listen more carefully. A new nurse asks why a certain routine is done in a certain way, and Leila realizes she does not know; she has always just done it. Together, they look it up and discover that the reason is no longer valid, and the routine is improved. Leila finds that teaching beginners has given her back her own beginner's mind. Her work feels interesting again.

Emeka is seventeen and has always told himself he is "not musical". When his school offers free drumming lessons, his friends persuade him to come. He is clumsy and slow at first, and part of him wants to quit. His teacher tells the group: "Everyone here is a beginner, including me, in some way. Just listen to the sound you make and enjoy it." Emeka decides to treat each lesson as an experiment rather than a test. Six months later, he plays in a small concert at the school. He is not the best drummer in the group, but he has discovered a joy he had decided, years before, was not for him.

Margit is seventy-nine and has never painted in her life. After her husband's death, a friend invites her to a watercolour class at the community centre. Margit is nervous. She expects to be bad at it, and she is, at first. But the teacher encourages everyone to look closely at what they are painting, as if seeing it for the first time. Margit spends a whole lesson looking at a single pear: its colours, its shadows, the tiny brown spots on its skin. She says afterwards that she had eaten thousands of pears and had never really seen one. Her paintings are simple, but she looks forward to every class, and she has begun to notice colours everywhere.

Arturo, from the beginning of this chapter, decides to walk to the bakery once a week as if Lucía were with him. He does not stop at every ant, but he looks around. He notices the seasons changing in the park, new flowers in a window box, the faces of neighbours he had only half seen for years. He begins to greet some of them. The walk is still seven minutes, most days. But it no longer feels like seven minutes of nothing.

Leila, Emeka, Margit and Arturo found beginner's mind in different ways: through teaching, through learning, through art and through a child. What they discovered was the same: that the world, and their own lives, were far richer than their familiar habits of seeing had allowed them to notice.

Practical Steps

First, take one familiar route freshly. Once a week, walk a route you know well as if for the first time. Look up, look down, notice details. Ask yourself what you have never noticed before.

Second, ask a real question. In a conversation with someone you know well, ask a question you do not know the answer to, and listen fully to the answer, without assuming you know what they will say.

Third, learn something new. Choose a small skill or subject you know nothing about and begin, accepting that you will be clumsy and slow. Notice what it feels like to be a beginner, and enjoy the freshness.

Fourth, notice your labels. When you catch yourself thinking "I know what this is" about a person, a place or a situation, pause and ask, "Do I really? What might I be missing?"

Fifth, empty your cup before listening. Before a meeting, a lesson or a conversation where you hope to learn, take a breath and consciously set aside, for a moment, what you already think. Then listen.

Sixth, sit as a beginner. Each time you sit for practice, remind yourself that this sitting is new. You have never sat this particular sitting before, and you will never sit it again.

A Short Practice: Meeting an Orange

This practice takes about ten minutes. It uses an ordinary piece of fruit, but you can use any small object or food that you know well.

Take an orange, or another fruit, and sit with it at a table. Before you do anything else, take three breaths. Then look at the orange as if you had never seen one before. Imagine that you have just arrived from a place where oranges do not exist, and this strange object has been placed in your hands.

Look at its colour. Is it one orange colour, or many? Notice any marks, spots or variations. Notice the tiny dimples in its skin. Turn it slowly in your hands and see how the light falls on it. Feel its weight. Feel its texture: rough, smooth, cool or warm. Bring it close to your nose and notice its smell.

Now, slowly, begin to peel it. Listen to the sound the peel makes. Notice the spray of tiny drops of oil and the sharper smell that is released. Look at the inside of the peel, white and soft. Look at the fruit beneath, with its thin threads and segments. Separate one segment and look at it closely, holding it up to the light.

Put the segment in your mouth, but do not bite at once. Notice how it feels on your tongue. Then bite slowly, and notice the burst of taste. Is it sweet, sour, both? How does the taste change as you chew? Notice the moment when you swallow, and what remains afterwards.

When you have finished one segment, pause. Ask yourself: how many oranges have I eaten in my life, and how many of them did I actually experience? You may continue eating the rest of the orange slowly, or simply enjoy it in your usual way, but notice whether anything has changed.

This practice can feel a little silly at first, and that is fine. It can also be surprisingly moving. It shows, in a very simple way, how much of ordinary life we pass by without noticing, and how rich even a familiar thing can be when it is met with beginner's mind.

Questions People Often Ask

"Is beginner's mind the same as being naive?" No. Naivety means lacking knowledge or experience and not realizing it. Beginner's mind is a choice to hold one's knowledge lightly and to stay open, even when one does have experience. An experienced person with beginner's mind is not naive. They know a great deal, but they also know that there is always more to see, and they keep looking.

"How can I keep beginner's mind in a job I have done for many years?" One helpful way is to look for what is different each day, even in a familiar routine: a different customer, a different light, a different problem. Another is to teach or explain your work to someone new, as Leila did, because their questions can show you your work freshly. A third is to set yourself small experiments, trying a slightly different way of doing a familiar task and noticing what happens.

"Does beginner's mind mean I should never be confident?" Not at all. Confidence in your skills is valuable and appropriate. Beginner's mind simply adds a willingness to keep learning and to see freshly. You can be confident in your ability to cook while still tasting each dish as if for the first time. In fact, people with deep skill are often the ones most open to learning, because they understand how much there is still to know.

Chapter Summary

Beginner's mind, in Japanese shoshin, is an attitude of openness, curiosity and freshness, the attitude of someone meeting something for the first time. As we gain experience, we often stop looking and see only our expectations. Beginner's mind does not ask us to give up our knowledge, but to hold it lightly enough that it does not block our view.

The idea became widely known through Shunryu Suzuki's book Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind (1970), which presents the beginner's openness as something to protect rather than outgrow. The often-told story of the overflowing cup shows that a mind full of its own opinions has no room for anything new. Familiarity and the comfort of knowing tend to close our eyes, especially with familiar places and people.

Taking familiar routes freshly, asking real questions, learning something new, noticing labels, emptying the cup before listening and sitting as a beginner all help. In the next chapter, we take beginner's mind for a walk, and explore the practice of walking slowly.